Helpless [无奈]

(October 15, 2013)
生命鲜活却也脆弱,想要将她紧紧地拥入怀中,却无奈无论如何也是无法实现这个愿望了。人生真的就是这样吗?要必须接受一个又一个的无奈和绝望,可是还是要活下去吗?


失去她之后,我还是过着我平常的生活,做着平常都在做的事,吃着平常都在吃的东西,说着平常都在说着的话,有的时候还是会笑,还是会哼着歌,仿佛她从来就没有存在过,我的人生如常,而她却不存在了,这样的活着是坚强还是冷漠呢?


我的心里又多了一个洞。。。一个无法修补的洞。
明明知道不会有答案,我还是一直在不停的问自己“为什么?” 。
我明白,这个世界上有的事情是永远都不会有答案的,过于执着只会自苦。 
可是我还是不停地每天的问自己。
 
 我不信神不信鬼,不相信转世轮回,
相信蜡炬成灰泪始干,相信灰飞烟灭, 
我快要疯了。。。 
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喝着滚烫的茶也没有办法温暖我的心 
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就永远的活在我的心里吧,和我一起一直的活下去 。。。
[我在秋天看见了你]
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One late autumn night, the disciple awoke crying. So the master asked the disciple, “Did you have a nightmare?” “No.” “Did you have a sad dream?” “No,” said the disciple. “I had a sweet dream.” “Then why are you crying so sadly?” The disciple wiped his tears away and quietly answered, “Because the dream I had can’t come true.”
一个秋天的夜晚,小和尚哭着醒来。师傅问他,“你做了一个噩梦,所以才哭泣吗?” 小和尚答道,“不是的。” 师傅又问道,“那么,你做了一个悲伤的梦吗?” 小和尚又答道, “不是的,我做了一个甜蜜的梦。” 师傅问道,“那么,你为什么哭得这么伤心呢?” 小和尚一边擦着他的眼泪,一边悲伤地答道,“因为我知道这个甜蜜的梦永远都不会实现。” 
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A disciple asked his master, “Do the leaves flow or is it the wind?” His master replied, “No, it is the heart and the mind.” 
一个小和尚问他的师傅,“是叶子在动,还是风在动?” 师傅说,“不是叶子也不是风,而是你的心动了。” 
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Sleepless Nights  - Eddie Vedder

Through the sleepless nights I cry for you
And wonder who, is kissing you
Oh these sleepless nights will break my heart in two

Somehow through the days I don’t give in
I hide the tears that wait within
Oh but then through sleepless nights I cry again

Why did you go? Why did you go?
Don’t you know, don’t you know
I need you?

I keep hoping you’ll come back to me
Oh let it be, please let it be
Oh my love, please end these sleepless nights for me  
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 Goodbye – Eddie Vedder
 
I’ve got our love to remember 

That will never change 

I have you in my head 

And no, I’ll never hold you 

And I’m still asking why 

I guess that this is goodbye 



My dreams suddenly seem so empty 

I could go on my own, but I feel like playin’ dead 

And for what feels like the first time 

I don’t know where you are tonight 

I guess that this is goodbye 



We lived half our lives together 

A Cloud full of tears,it’s a lot of weight to bear 

And the sun, it may be shining 

There’s an ocean in my eyes 

Cause I know that this is goodbye 

Cause I know that this… is goodbye